im back...

kamusta naman? finally naka log in na din ako sa blog ko. weird that i cant remember my password, finally ok na :-)

whats new? gosh ang dami! im now staying here in cebu since june this year. this is really a life changing moment for me. i am here all because of my passion for work, nyek! well i really dont have a choice. or i did have a choice naman pala. to accept this offer or to resign from work. obviously i chose to be here, i cant afford to resign because i enjoy what i am doing and i need money, yun na! my 1st month here in cebu was ok. my boyfriend emil was staying with me. i really didnt think of home that much. we would go out every night, hotel and bar hopping, in short i have company. he left june 24 for canada. well he lives there so he needs to go back. then thats the timei felt so alone. month of july i was almost out of town everyweek. ive been to different areas here in visayas, dumaguete, tagbilaran, bacolod so i didnt think of home that much. 1st week of august i found myself so homesick and next thing i know i was already crying and when i say crying, i was crying like a baby. i miss home so much. i miss the home cooked meal, i miss my house, my bed, my friends and my family. i used to love long weekends. but now that i am living alone, i hate it. But the next thing i know i was already back in manila. august 2 i decided to take a leave from work and go home. it was holiday here in cebu august 6 so its the best time to go home. i took the 830am flight cebu-manila via cebu pacific. my mom picked me up at the airport and i can feel that she was happy to see me. i enjoyed every minute of my stay in manila. thursday afternoon i went to the mall with charlene and had my nails done, just like what i used to do. friday morning i had my exam from another company because i am that eager and decided to quit my current job just to go back to manila. lunchtime i met up w/ a good friend tammy and we had lunch. after that i passed by our head office in enterprise to visit my co workers and had coffee at starbucks w/ my good friend May. I told her all about my life in cebu, how sad i am and how i wanted to go back home. Friday night i felt something different, i felt sick. Had my temperature checked only to find out i had fever, all becasue of over fatigue, too much work. My tita gave me massage and i drank medicine. Thank God the next day i was ok. Saturday night i met up w/ val and was so happy to see her. we went to greenhills promenade, had dinner at teriyaki boy and dessert at bizu. i enjoyed that night and i savor every minute of it coz i know i'll be back in cebu soon. i miss hanging out with her. I know if Val is with me in cebu, i will not feel that sad. Yes i am really sad here, i guess the right word is really depressed. Sometimes i will just cry because i felt so alone. this is my 3rd month in cebu and i know i cant last for another 9mos. NO WAY! i will go back to manila and that is for sure. Sunday, my family and i went to the cemetery to visit my dad. Monday was the day i really hated because i have to fly back to cebu. The next thing i know i was already in the plane and already in cebu. grabe so so sad!!! i cant wait to go back home, this time for good. Cebu is a nice place but nothing compares home. I dont have much friends here and i dont really want to meet new friends because i dont like cebuanos that much, they have this certain attitude that i dont really like. If im home, i just go online and checked my email and friendster. Thats my life here. Right now i just wanted to go back to manila and work in a different company. I am not happy with my life now but i am trying hard not to think of it too much coz i know it wont do me any good. But im keeping my hopes high and i am praying that i will be home soon....